My Sorry for the Evening, Part 23

I'm sorry for being so quiet tonight...

This is a very hard week for me...

My life has been a snow globe shaken up.

The normalcy is visible but out of reach.

Everything hurts.

I just want the snow to settle on the bottom of the globe...

Close my eyes...rest my mind...My sincerest apologies for my silence...

This is all too much as it is...

Time to Close

I'm shutting my brain off tonight.

I've needed to do this for a while.

What's the point...

You're you...

I'm me...

I suppose that's really all I need to know.

It is what it is.

Things aren't ending...

I'm redirecting my acceptance...

Redirecting my tolerance...

Back to strength.

Time to close.

It's time for the Shut Down process

Good morning day

Good morning, you.

Rewind the tape and take me back to the part where I didn't need a power button.

Shut down the situations that made things different...

Shut down the brain to make the brain go back to the simpler situations.

Let it go...this too shall pass.

Thoughts

I'm thinking to much about the fact that I shouldn't be thinking about things.

This is very confusing...and difficult.

within my reach

I'm stretching...I'm touching the leaves...

just a bit further and I will climb into the safety of your branches.

Finding that solace...up in the top...

time to make some changes and fight myself to be happy.

Why

Why can't I stop thinking about this all...

you show me affection then leave me to rot...

but am I really rotting?

I mean, in both senses of the meaning...I know I'm fine and will be fine....so I'm not rotting away...but my brain seems to stay fixated on this situation that could or couldn't be.

That's the way I rot.

Knowing is half the battle.

rainy days and fridays

I've got two pair of shoes in my purse...one matches the outfit, the other is just too damn comfortable...can't wear either on my way to work as the rain will soak them and cause discomfort for the entire shift.

Rain brings people down, so they say...

gloomy, wet...dark.

I hope my basement doesn't flood.